Showing posts with label braless. Show all posts
Showing posts with label braless. Show all posts

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

I slept in chaos

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and did not die.


Bullet #1: I always want my stuff in neat pile, according to size and colour even according to frequency of usage if applicable. 

We moved again somewhere in downtown - the second time within the month of January. As the cabinets are yet to be delivered and assembled we have no choice but leave the stuff the way they were tossed inside the room. Right now, it would be fun to engage the kids into ‘find my…’ game with the 4 overstuffed luggage, Balikbayan box, tool boxes of accessories, frying pan and thongs and assortment of paper bags sloppily spread all over the new room.


Bullet #2: And the stuff I accumulated is massive – tsk, tsk, for one whose status is single and whose salary affords only the convenience of sharing the room (or as we call it here ‘partition’) with a friend.

As I’ve said long time back, I spend my money on happiness – so they are in the accessories, collectibles, consumables, garbage, dust and etc... that surprised me I have stashed somewhere and require a 3-door closet, additional chest drawers, side tables, shoe rack and kitchen cupboards for me to have peace of mind.  As I fumbled around to look for the panty liner, rubber slippers, a new towel and etc... to get started this morning, I was greeting each box, plastic bag and drawer with: ‘hello happiness!’, ‘hello happiness!’. Nice. I have to pass on the cotton buds though, because the lights were off and I can’t find the switch – well, if in case you find that interesting.

Good thing, I’ve already sent home my books. I think I already gave up the hope that I can give them the undivided attention I want. So there they are waiting patiently for my homecoming or whatever lies ahead of my visa status or sponsor. Lalalala…


Bullet #3: It’s 8 minutes walk away from the nearest bus stop. Not that it matters, well, until summer time comes that I have to worry about sweaty armpits. The highlight though? I have to pass the subway each time. There’s something cinematic and mood picker-upper in subways, don’t ask me why. 


Bullet #4: Made me realize, nothing is really permanent living in Dubai: the address, your roommates, your weight, even relationships, religion, church, beliefs and etc… hmmm… I think I’d rather devote another write up about it, when I know my stuff are back into their dedicated place.

For now, let me just enjoy the subway. 


Bullet #5: On the 3rd night at the new building, the fire alarm screeched in a cold 6am morning. One that makes your knees shake and heart thump on your throat. The next minute, all the Filipino residents were down the lobby with anything important that they were able to grab. It was False Alarm. The good news though is, the device is working. Only that it works overtime even if uncalled for. 

Has the fire razed the building, I would have been roofless with nothing but passport in my pocket and updating my status in my Ipad braless.  




Saturday, October 17, 2009

ooopps i did it again

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"I wonder how are you gonna take this, or if we're gonna see things in the same light. we can't run away from the issue no matter how much we try. and i wonder if talking would help us (knowing what talking can do to us). i want to attend the service and i need it right now.

i wonder if it's the right thing to say but i think we need to decide from here.

i've got a problem... ONLY LOVE CAN CONTROL ME...

yeah, you said it's hard for me to give in... to admit i am wrong... NO, not that i don't acknowledge my mistakes. i can't give in, YES. again, ONE HAS TO LOVE ME TO CONTROL ME.

i know it wouldn't be easy for anybody i'm with right now, and i'm ready if you'll say, you want to give up. there are too many things i've to work out in me and that would be unfair to anybody i am with that i go through the process and we don't seem to meet eye to eye.

even you have told me too many times that i measure love the way i want to see things...

because i can't measure things i cannot see... and things that are not given to me... it's me not you and we will only go in circles not accepting who i am... so it's okay with me if you want to say 'hindi mo na kaya'. coz i know there's a long way for me to go..."

i was evidently in my ‘papansin’ mode again... stomping in my 3 x 4 m room and crying my heart out to get what i want for an hour... struggling to win the argument ready to set the building on fire and A was handling the reign too tight... when tears won't work, the novel-length sms (ironic huh!) seemed to be the most dramatic way to punctuate the conversation and elicit empathy from him. Finally, he texted back: "6 p.m at the church".

one long shower and one jeepney ride after, i was on my way from qc to ortigas. my heart and mind still riotous with the realizations, the confrontation and in anticipation of our would-be-confrontation in a short while... was rehearsing my award-winning lines... blah, blah, blah... when suddenly i realized something didn't feel right... SOMETHING REALLY VERY VERY UNFAMILIAR!!! WTF!!! i wasn't wearing bra underneath my blouse!!! i am female, 30 y.o., half-human half-sane, unpadded 34-B, marching amid the heavy traffic of EDSA braless! right at that moment i wished - indeed wished earth would open up and swallow me...

with my bust size, wearing nothing underneath is something that wouldn't go unnoticed. okay, they're not worthy gracing the cover of Maxim or FHM... but still i'm top heavy and hell, just think about the discomfort knowing that i feel the twin mounds at my front rocking every time i walk or the FX i was riding in would pass on th humps... needless to say, i went straight to robinson's department store ladies' section....

A can't stop the grin when i slumped beside him at the church... too much for the primetime teleserye overdose...


originally posted: september 17, 2007